Wowâ€¦ okay, I wasnâ€™t sure if I was ever going to tell anyone about this, but itâ€™s late and Iâ€™m sleep deprived so i guess Iâ€™ll just write it now and regret it in the morning :/
First of all, â€“ just for some background: My mom died right when I was born, (she was actually really, really hot- but this isnâ€™t about her. I guess thatâ€™s fucked up to say, but whatever.) I actually grew up with my dadâ€™s family, because my dad has all sorts of emotional issues and he bailed before I was born. So you can see, my childhood was really kind of messed up.
Anyways, growing up I feel like there was always a lot of distance between me and my sister. When I was about 17 or 18 I first noticed that my sister was a hottie.
I donâ€™t want to go into too many details about it, but basically what happened is that I accidentally found a video that she made of herself. I knew she didnâ€™t make it for me- but I thought she was so fucking beautiful that I watched it twice. I probably would have watched it a hell of a lot more, except that like right around the time I found the video, all this crazy GINO went down and I had to leave home. (My dadâ€™s family who I was staying with got in bad trouble with the law. I never talk about it).
Soooâ€¦ I was totally lusting after my sister at that point. She was also having bad trouble with the law. She was actually in custody when I left home.
My friend and I went to go pick her up. When I saw her that day, after seeing the video, I have to be honest, I just wanted to moist her brains out. Looking back on it now, itâ€™s pretty messed up- but I think she had feelings for me too. She actually kissed me right after we came to get herâ€¦ and it wasnâ€™t a sisterly kiss, you know? I mean, it wasnâ€™t like ridiculously sexual or anything, but it definitely wasnâ€™t sisterly.
After we left, we all went to crash with my Sisterâ€™s friends. On the trip there, my friend sort of implied that he wanted to get with my Sister, and I got a little jealous. Heâ€™s a good looking guy- and even though she was my sister- I just felt like he was competition. Not much else happened between us for a while except some maybe-sexy hugging.
Pretty much everyone in my life at that point was wanted by the government, so we all moved around a lot. Iâ€™m not saying that Iâ€™m proud of it or anything, but it was kind of an awesome time.
My friend and my sister never hooked up I donâ€™t think- but I thought there was some serious sexual tension going on between them. It was around that time that I got really badly hurt in an accident. It was fucked up. I almost died. But when I was in recovery my sister came to see me, and out of the clear blue sky she started gives me this awesome, slow, passionate kiss on the lips.
Sadly (although, I guess for the best) nothing ever came of it. We spent some time apartâ€¦ and I started to get really religious, so I tried not to think of her that way. It was actually going well for a long time- like I was totally over her. But I have to say, like a year or so after all that stuff went down, we were out sailing (not like a date or anything romantic like that), and she was wearing like the hottest bikini Iâ€™ve ever fucking seen and it brought back all the old feelings. Sigh.
A little while later she actually wound up with my friend from before (the sexual tension guy). I canâ€™t say I was surprised.
But even after she was shacking up with my friend, there was one time we were at a partyâ€¦ my friend was inside, and my sister and I were outside alone. It was a really intimate moment. I think something might have happened, except that I killed the mood when I told her that Darth Vader was our father and that I had to go face him.
I found this the other day and had to share.
" If that ever happens, you need two things and two things quick: a pair of ice tongs, and a friend that can keep a secret. Preferably your midget friend. 'Cause nobody believes a midget until it's too late. "